Daddy,
it has been awhile since i called You like tat…
hehe…
just want to thanks You for ALL ALL ALL the wonderful things You have done in my life…
and the things that You have given to me…
the greatest gift of ALL…
i thank You for giving me the faith of God…
Your very own faith…

All these years…
there was almost nothing i cannot believe You for…
faith so great that sometimes it acts before i can even think…
having faith is not to put my brains at home…
but despite of all the consideration…
i consider God…

When i first knew You in a neighbourhood church…
though i was put in a situation where i did not learn much about the bible…
did not know how to pray a proper prayer…
persecuted in all my ways…
demean by the people around me…
discriminated and often mock at…
i wish to leave church so many times…
many times i cry my way to church and cry my way home…
but just one word…
You know i will follow…
You said to me…
“Wait”
and there i was for one and a half years…

when i came to CHC…
i knew i have to make a decision between my best buddy and You…
she stops me from going to church and does all things to decourage me from going…
there on the altar i laid down my life…
i broke up my friendship with her…
because i chose to go church every saturday…
and for cg every sunday…
i used to be one of the most notorious girl in school…
where even my discipline mistress got to talk to me properly…
and almost no one dares to lift her voice to me…
i walk out of class as and when i like…
and was placed in high positions that allows me to lead the whole school…
to stand before the school to speak…
however that day…
i stood alone…
though i maybe alone, i know i am not lonely…
Your peace filled my heart…
that year was streaming…
it was abit too late when i started to study…
2 weeks before exams…
but i got into the 2nd best class…
my classmates who studied the whole year…
threw papers at me…
scolding me…
that i do not deserve to be there…
deep down i know it’s not be…
Your grace preserved me…
then you spoke to me about being a good testimony…
i tried to change…
i forsake my notorious lifestyle…
try my best to hand in work on time…
show respect to my teachers…
but they persecuted me…
all of them rose up against me together…
tries to pull me down from all the positions i am holding…
i lost all my confidence in leading people…
this really kinda affected me…
even when it comes to leading Your people…
last time i was fearless…
but now i know the fear of God…
though it affected me for quite a few years…
it did not last long till i learn to lead with the fear of God…
not with my own confidence…
but the confidence in You and Your word…
and with the guidance of the holy spirit…

Twice i sign up for a mission trip with only $7 in my bank…
and You provided for me…
ABUNDANCE!
i paid off the whole trip…
have more htan enough to eat and even do shopping…

though i gave up that friendship…
God restored me with many many folds of friends…
i guess i could not even name all of them out…
too many…

this time…
i am going to do it again…
i do not know how well i am going to do it…
but i believe that with You, all things are possible…
and i can be the best student…
and i know that You will provide for me…
with ABUNDANCE…

one word…
You know i will follow…
and once again…
on this altar i lay down my life…

i will press on to the goal You set before me…
i do not know…
i do not know if i can do it…
if i have the courage and strength to pull it through….
but for the souls set before me…
i will go and really focus on my studies…
and these 3 years i will put relationship aside and really focus…
i do not want to take up a vow because i will be a fool if i am unable to keep it…
but as much as possible…
i will set my eyes on the goal…
the souls and salvation of the thousands and millions…
i will focus and really draw as much from the lecturers as i can…
and i know that when the time i come back…
i will recieve what You have instored for me…

i guess just as i am not selfish…
he is also not selfish…
i guess we both thought he same…
what is the point of saying anything now since i am confirm going…
are we going to hang each other there for 3 years…?
i guess not…
so meanwhile..
i will just enjoy this friendship…
for indeed he had been a really wonderful friend…
i thank him for being an encoourager but he said he really didn’t do much…
encouraging others have become part of him i guess…
he had been a really important friend to me…
one who carried my dreams thus far…
he encouraged me to believed in me to become a leader…
when i lost the courage and drive to do it…
he was there when i go through times of trails…
in becoming a leader and a staff…
cheering me on…
even times when i am in pain and frustration over the pain my braces caused…
he was there to comfort me…
to now…
when pressures and persecutions sets in due to my decision to go sweden…
he was there cheering me on and encouraging me…
for once…
i feel that there is someone who believes in me…
but of course…
God, You know You come before him…
when it comes to priority…
that’s why i am willing to put this relationship on hold…
for the call You have for me…
one word and i will go…
no matter what turns out after the 3 years…
i know You have a plan for me…

i know he has been going through alots of stress from these, from work, from study and even from church…
i pray that he will not be affected by these…
because i know it is in Your will and according to Your time…
if he is stress over work because there is no clients…
then Lord..
i pray You will give him ABUNDANCE of clients…
let the reason why he is too busy be because he got too many clients to meet…
and not because he got to find clients…
his studies…
i pray for Your wisdom and knowledge to be upon him…
that he will be quick to understand and catch what the lecturers are trying to say…
also strengthen his physical body that he will not fall sick easily…
neither will he be too tired in class…
but he will be able to concentrate and pay attention…
for church…
i know he will volunteer for ANYTHING as long as he can serve You…
Lord…
You know him from inside out and i guess i don’t have to say…
but encourage his heart that even when times he face discipleship…
due to things he did or did not do…
Lord…
be with him to comfort him…
and indeed make him the man You want him to be…
and as he take responsibility…
rise him up to the authority You have in mind for him…
use him mightily in Your kingdom…

then for myself…
guide me and give me the wisdom and knowledge i need…
find someone for my work fast…
one who really love Sun and wenling…
so that i can pray for my visa to be approved fast..
because i really don’t want to be missing my lessons…
let my textbook arrive fast…
so at least i can study for my quizes…
which is tomorrow…
it comes every 2 weeks…
help me to be able to do well for my quizes so i can glorify You..
i know the timing i go is also according to Your time…
so let everything be done according to Your will k…

then also bless my mum in her business…
my dad in his work…
and my brother in his new job…
my cg to grow and mulitply…
my previous cg to grow in maturity and love for You…
my zone to really see revival…
the church to really hit our target of 30,000…
all these thigns i commit to You..
indeed in You, NOTHING is impossible…

“But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD!” -Joshua 24:15